Grace to the undeserved.

Hey, I've not been here for a very long time but today I am just so full of the Word that I have to tell it to someone or write it somewhere so here I am. Here was how God started the Bible: IN THE BEGINNING The earth was without form, void and darkness was on the face of the deep. Can you imagine that? A thing without shape, emptiness and darkness. How weird that feels. Something without colour, without sound, without life. And I love this: THEN GOD SAID "LET THERE BE LIGHT" AND THERE WAS LIGHT. I love THEN GOD SAID. I think it's so amazing. Whatever He saw, He believed in the power of His words, and He spoke and whatever He spoke came to pass. The immediate result was there. Wow, and it's crazy how Genesis 1 proceeds in such majesty and in such life. It just keeps levelling up, from a greater level of glory to glory. God started naming everything. Everything was so precious to Him that He gave them names and remembered them. He even named the sky,...

Hey my fellow friends. have been lately so busy studying and going out haha. There has been a lot on my mind, beside studying and it's hard I guess, to keep up with this. I honestly feel that I am so behind time and schedule that I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. But there're so many things that I have learnt and experienced. His love, His embrace and His presence that overcomes every fear that I am going through. And beloved, if your exams are coming soon and you're afraid of what may happen. I challenge you to challenge God, to never stop asking, to never stop believing and challenge the Lord to show up because He always does. And don't think for one moment, that He is far away and not there with you. Because that is an outright lie. No matter what you did wrong or right, He is there. As you continue studying during this period, always study conscious of Christ. I know, it's easier said than done. But do it until it becomes a habit. D...

Today I was so impacted by Brian Houston's message, that I really really want to share it with you. Wow on so many levels, it spoke to me. Pastor Brian was saying about having a spirit that isn't affected by anyone else. That isn't affected by someone else. That is the spirit that I want to have man. Not a spirit that can be lifted up by someone's compliments and broken down by someone's criticism. But I've realised that that wasn't what was really happening. I've been letting my spirit be wavered by the people in my life. The people whom I respect. I want their compliments, I crave their praise. I didn't know that it was tearing down my spirit. When I didn't get the words I wanted, when I thought I was good enough to deserve these praises. Jesus really tore down that wall of self-righteousness that I never knew existed. Even after so many years in a grace-based church, I've been trying to earn what is not mine, what I think I dese...

Wow, Jesus, this is by far the best camp of all the ones I've been too. I don't know how You manage to make every camp better than the one before. Before I came to this camp, I felt so frustrated at myself for not being good enough, not meeting up to expectations, being pathetic and unworthy. But Jesus, Your supply met and overexceeded my demand. You told me that I am good enough, that I and worthy and that I am chosen. Those were the words I really needed to hear man. When Pastor Lian just spoke forth those words, wow, I knew it was You. And Pastor told us to imagine Jesus hugging us. I felt Your presence so strongly and I really felt someone embracing me, someone filled with so much love, someone who loved me so much despite of all my flaws, all my sins, all my shortcomings. I didn't know that I was choosing to accept all these lies that the devil puts on me. It seemed so real but Jesus I replace every lie with Your truth. His presence was so strong throughout...

Woah just wanna say that my breakthrough really came during the concert. I am so touched now and I'm feeling Daddy God saying to me now that "Darling, I love you, here's your early birthday present." The journey towards the dance concert was so tough for me. There were so many things I couldn't do, couldn't catch. I was just lacking in so many different areas. But the Lord constantly showed me His grace, His supply and His love. There was no doubt He was dancing through me. Yet there were so many times I doubted Him, wasn't sure if He could come through for me, wasn't sure if He was really there for me. I still screwed up in the end for the dance concert and even more mistakes than the dry runs. But the energy within me was so powerful and I believe that was Jesus. I am so sorry to the choreographers for being such a bad dancer and failing in so many ways. Honestly, I wanted to give up at one point in the concert because I screwed up big ti...

Hey been very busy lately with concert coming up on Wednesday and pretty excited yet nervous for it. There's so much demand and so far, I haven't seen much breakthrough in my dance yet. I still can't do a lot of stuff and not meeting up to expectations yet. But today, I just decided that it is up to Him, not me to fulfil these crazy demands and weigh myself down. Omgosh, I just received a revelation, yes, right this instant. That the cross was all our burdens and shame weighing Jesus down. WOW. No wonder the cross was so heavy. No wonder His back was bent when He carried it. No wonder He stumbled and fell. He carried every burden, every demand, every shame on His back so that our burdens can be lifted off our shoulders. :') I was so not planning to say that but I guess someone needed this so Jesus spoke through me. Anyways, I was planning to share on my walk with my Lover, Jesus these past few days. Have been really spiritually filled and been spen...

Just thought that I should at least write about this since it impacted me so muchhhh. Last Sunday, Pastor Louie was preaching about how the God of all universe the one who created the Heavens, the Earth, the universe, the galaxy, the stars came down as a Man to die for a dust like us. It was mindblowing because Pastor showed pictures of the universe and how small we were in comparison. Yes, honestly, I didn't see it from this perspective because I only saw how big I was relative to the things around me. I didn't think that actually the Lord had so many bigger things in sight. He could have cared for the bigger things yet, He came for me. He came for a tiny being that came from dust and will go back to ashes. He came for a sinful person who only cared about herself. He came for a girl who did not know about God and yet He loved her. He came for a broken person who did not care about God and thought no one loved her. He came for me. Isn't that amazing?! Wow, I wa...