Grace to the undeserved.

Wow, Jesus, this is by far the best camp of all the ones I've been too. I don't know how You manage to make every camp better than the one before. Before I came to this camp, I felt so frustrated at myself for not being good enough, not meeting up to expectations, being pathetic and unworthy. But Jesus, Your supply met and overexceeded my demand. You told me that I am good enough, that I and worthy and that I am chosen. Those were the words I really needed to hear man. When Pastor Lian just spoke forth those words, wow, I knew it was You. And Pastor told us to imagine Jesus hugging us. I felt Your presence so strongly and I really felt someone embracing me, someone filled with so much love, someone who loved me so much despite of all my flaws, all my sins, all my shortcomings. I didn't know that I was choosing to accept all these lies that the devil puts on me. It seemed so real but Jesus I replace every lie with Your truth. His presence was so strong throughout...

Woah just wanna say that my breakthrough really came during the concert. I am so touched now and I'm feeling Daddy God saying to me now that "Darling, I love you, here's your early birthday present." The journey towards the dance concert was so tough for me. There were so many things I couldn't do, couldn't catch. I was just lacking in so many different areas. But the Lord constantly showed me His grace, His supply and His love. There was no doubt He was dancing through me. Yet there were so many times I doubted Him, wasn't sure if He could come through for me, wasn't sure if He was really there for me. I still screwed up in the end for the dance concert and even more mistakes than the dry runs. But the energy within me was so powerful and I believe that was Jesus. I am so sorry to the choreographers for being such a bad dancer and failing in so many ways. Honestly, I wanted to give up at one point in the concert because I screwed up big ti...

Hey been very busy lately with concert coming up on Wednesday and pretty excited yet nervous for it. There's so much demand and so far, I haven't seen much breakthrough in my dance yet. I still can't do a lot of stuff and not meeting up to expectations yet. But today, I just decided that it is up to Him, not me to fulfil these crazy demands and weigh myself down. Omgosh, I just received a revelation, yes, right this instant. That the cross was all our burdens and shame weighing Jesus down. WOW. No wonder the cross was so heavy. No wonder His back was bent when He carried it. No wonder He stumbled and fell. He carried every burden, every demand, every shame on His back so that our burdens can be lifted off our shoulders. :') I was so not planning to say that but I guess someone needed this so Jesus spoke through me. Anyways, I was planning to share on my walk with my Lover, Jesus these past few days. Have been really spiritually filled and been spen...

Just thought that I should at least write about this since it impacted me so muchhhh. Last Sunday, Pastor Louie was preaching about how the God of all universe the one who created the Heavens, the Earth, the universe, the galaxy, the stars came down as a Man to die for a dust like us. It was mindblowing because Pastor showed pictures of the universe and how small we were in comparison. Yes, honestly, I didn't see it from this perspective because I only saw how big I was relative to the things around me. I didn't think that actually the Lord had so many bigger things in sight. He could have cared for the bigger things yet, He came for me. He came for a tiny being that came from dust and will go back to ashes. He came for a sinful person who only cared about herself. He came for a girl who did not know about God and yet He loved her. He came for a broken person who did not care about God and thought no one loved her. He came for me. Isn't that amazing?! Wow, I wa...

HAHA this is a weird topic but I believe all of you have experienced them once in your life right? It isn't easy getting out of them as easy as it was to get into one. In Sec 2, I had one and I was crazy, head over heels man for this guy. And I did so many foolish things that I'm so embarrassed to mention about it here. But soon, I knew that it was a one-way thing and I felt super dejected. It's such a small thing and yet it hit me hard. I felt unloved, insecure and many other negative feelings. But through this journey, it strengthened my relationship with the Lord. Through this, I began to see Jesus as my lover and I no longer feel affected by it anymore ptl :)))) I went to the Lord crying my heart out and I felt Him just embracing me and saying to me,  "Grace, if no man on earth loves you, I, the Creator, the Saviour, the Almighty God, the Prince of Peace, the Everlasting Father loves you." Wah, I just couldn't believe it man. Someo...

Hello just got reminded of what Alena shared during CG that day. She said that sometimes we might be feeling like bored and meh everytime we come for church etc. And that's actually because we are so full that there's no where to release our fullness. Sometimes, with our flesh we are just so selfish and want all the blessings for ourselves. Then I thought that what Alena said made so much sense. There were times, honestly, that I felt that I shouldn't share the gospel because what if God blessed her/him also and there will be less blessings for me. But that is absolutely not true, it is a lie from the devil. God has more than enough for you and your friend to bless you abundantly and still have many leftover. There is no such thing as opportunity cost when it comes to the matters of God because His supply is infinite; much more than you can imagine. Then, it hit me, why am I then withholding this good news when my God did not withheld His son to save me? It was re...

Jesus, I feel so down today... I'm just torn between what to do and what not to do. So many thoughts keep chasing me down, shouting in different voices in my mind. I feel so lost Lord that I don't know what to do. But it's just these days Lord that I feel so much more closer to You. You are the only one I can turn to when man fails. But Father, I thank You that you have let me gone through all these troubles to know that You are the only one who truly cares for me, I'm so glad it happened that I got to spend more time with You. Yes, I am in control of my feelings. I can choose to be happy about this situation, yes I can. But Father I just want to run into Your arms tonight, like a child who runs to his father when he's scared, when he's lonely, when he just need some warmth. I think that's exactly what I need and I know that you won't reject me. I know that you will just squeeze me tight in Your arms and won't let go until I do. Th...