Grace to the undeserved.

Jesus, I feel so down today... I'm just torn between what to do and what not to do. So many thoughts keep chasing me down, shouting in different voices in my mind. I feel so lost Lord that I don't know what to do. But it's just these days Lord that I feel so much more closer to You. You are the only one I can turn to when man fails. But Father, I thank You that you have let me gone through all these troubles to know that You are the only one who truly cares for me, I'm so glad it happened that I got to spend more time with You. Yes, I am in control of my feelings. I can choose to be happy about this situation, yes I can. But Father I just want to run into Your arms tonight, like a child who runs to his father when he's scared, when he's lonely, when he just need some warmth. I think that's exactly what I need and I know that you won't reject me. I know that you will just squeeze me tight in Your arms and won't let go until I do. Th...

The four walls stared at me. I could hardly see anything else besides the light that was streaming in from the windows. The moon shone brightly amongst the dark sky. It reminded me that He was still with me, even in the pits. I was at the lowest point in my life. Everything was taken away from me. My father, Benjamin and the luxurious life I was used to living. All that I had was gone. I have been stripped away from my position, from being the overseer of Potiphar's household. It seems like there was no God. I spoke to Him but there was no reply. Why Lord, why me? The next day, the rooster crowed. Two new prisoners were being confined with me: the king's baker and his butler. They both had dreams but had no interpretation. Lord, I know that all interpretations belong to You and You alone. They told their dreams to me and He interpreted them through me. The dreams came to past soon after as God's word is Truth. Father, will I ever get out of this prison wa...

These past few days, I've been observing the sky a lot and just looking up to see. This is one of the ways that Jesus speaks to me. :) So the other day after CG, I felt quite down and I wanted to see the stars in the sky. But to my dismay, there were none. I simply complained to the Lord, saying, "Lord, I want to see the stars." I peered up again and viola, so many stars appeared before my eyes. It was a breathtaking view man. There was one constellation that caught my eye: the orion belt. It reminded me so much of the cross. Can you see it? It was just so amazing and I felt the Lord telling me that He loves me. And when I saw the cross, everything just fell into place. He hung the stars for me, the whole world just revolves around Him. Even the stars praise His name. When I complained, He did not condemn me or scold me but yet He enveloped me with His love. I was just lost for words. How great my God is.  p.s. I just re-read my post ab...

Hey just wanna share about the sermon by Pastor Prince this Sunday. I just felt a huge sense of His love for me and so... here it goes. A Samaritan Woman Meets Her Messiah 4  Therefore, when the Lord knew that the Pharisees had heard that Jesus made and baptized more disciples than John  2  (though Jesus Himself did not baptize, but His disciples),  3  He left Judea and departed again to Galilee.  4  But He needed to go through Samaria. 5  So He came to a city of Samaria which is called Sychar, near the plot of ground that Jacob gave to his son Joseph.  6  Now Jacob’s well was there. Jesus therefore, being wearied from  His journey, sat thus by the well. It was about the sixth hour. 7  A woman of Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her,  “Give Me a drink.”   8  For His disciples had gone away into the city to buy food. 9  Then the woman of Samaria said to Him, “How is it that You, being ...

Hey hey hey! Yesterday was the end of my OP exam. Really want to give a great shout-out to the Lord who deserves all the glory :) Only He could have made it such a success and just filled with grace. I am really glad that Abba gave me such an awesome PW journey even though it was not always smooth. But I've learned a lot of things through this process and it grew me. It was so amazing that with my very own eyes, I saw how He transformed me from glory to glory. To be very honest, one of my expectations was to speak confidently to an audience. In the beginning of the year, I was actually very afraid of speaking up. Idk why but there was this fear and I was so scared about what others thought of me while I was speaking. The thought of speaking to a crowd was immensely terrifying. Wow, but He just slowly removed that fear from my heart. When I knew that He was with me through the OP exam and constantly reminded myself that Christ is my confidence, I was no longer afraid. ...

Hi guys. :) Today I got back all the papers for my Promotional Exams. Not all of them were good but still all glory to Jesus. :) Out of all these subjects, the ones that really was graced were the ones I thought I was lacking in. The ones that I believed that I could do didn't reap much. I am just really really thankful for my Chinese results. I don't know how the Lord does  it over and over again, always blessing me for Chinese when I know I suck at it. I seriously do and there is absolutely NO way I could have done this based on my hard work and efforts. I know it myself. There was not once I touched Chinese before the Promos except on the day itself. But God is just soooo good to me. From secondary school till now, God has always been showing me His grace on Chinese. (I pray that it shall be the same for the rest of my subjects too!) I guess it is the fact that I know I cannot do Chinese without Him and it is my absolute weakness. But oh how the L...

Father, today I had my physics promos. It was just so so so bad. I didn't know how to do many questions and left many blanks. I don't even know if I'm going to pass this man. Father, but I thank You that You are good and You will turn things around for me. It's not about me or how I did but it's about You. I thank You that things can get better because I have you. Father, I just don't know what to do but I place all these worries at Your feet. Father, I just let go of all this cares and worries I have in my hand right now and give them to you. It doesn't matter how well I did this time because I am successful because of You. Lord, teach me not to look at myself but just look at You.