Undeserved.

Hi guys. :)

Today I got back all the papers for my Promotional Exams.

Not all of them were good but still all glory to Jesus. :)

Out of all these subjects, the ones that really was graced were the ones I thought I was lacking in.

The ones that I believed that I could do didn't reap much.

I am just really really thankful for my Chinese results.

I don't know how the Lord does  it over and over again, always blessing me for Chinese when I know I suck at it.

I seriously do and there is absolutely NO way I could have done this based on my hard work and efforts.

I know it myself. There was not once I touched Chinese before the Promos except on the day itself.

But God is just soooo good to me.

From secondary school till now, God has always been showing me His grace on Chinese. (I pray that it shall be the same for the rest of my subjects too!)

I guess it is the fact that I know I cannot do Chinese without Him and it is my absolute weakness.

But oh how the Lord has blessed me!

Doing the examinations was not stressful but restful.

Even though I had no idea what I was doing, I just continued believing that somehow, He can turn things around.

I was soo shocked by my results! 

Got an A for Chinese!!!!! 

This is my first A in the whole year and it was what I expected to see in this year.

Not only that, I cannot believe that I got second in class!

This is too amazing to be out of my own self-efforts or hard work. 

There is no way.

Oh oh oh actually I have endless short testimonies but I figured that I shall just share another one.

The other miraculous thing was my GP essay.

I answered the whole question in the wrong format, hardly gave any examples at all and it was just bad.

After the paper, my friends were discussing it and I was like "Oh, crap."

Wrote it in the totally wrong format. What am I gonna do?

There were just so many thoughts streaming into my head.

Sometimes, I would think about it and wonder if I will fail GP and not promote.

This thought was horrible and resided for a while.

At the same time, I know that my Lord is good and I believe that somehow, He will bring me through.

The process was just so hard and it was truly the battle of the mind.

But the thing was that Pastor Benjamin preached about faith the week before getting back my papers.

Hebrew 11:1 (Jerusalem ver.) Only faith can guarantee the blessings that we hope for, or prove the existence of realities that at the present remain unseen.

Faith is the proof of unseen reality.

That really blew my mind to think that I can believe in His promises not because of what I can see physically but what is said in God's word.

Whatever that I cannot see at the moment is not the truth.

Only God's Word is.

That really set me free of all the negative thoughts that I had and focused my eyes on the one who loves me.

Besides, my results aren't the ones that determine my future because the Almighty God has already held my future in His wonderful hands.

It turns out that my essay was fine and my GP teacher said that even though I wrote it in the wrong format, the essay was sound and so marks will not be deducted.

Wow, what favour. 

Yeah, so overall, my results were better for Mid-Years except for Chemistry. 

But I believe that God is using that as a platform for His blessings to come into my life.

And beloved, even though your results might not be as ideal as you wish it to be, I believe that it is because God is setting you up for more blessings and not for failure.

Just continue believing the results even though you might not see it and one day, you will :)

Stay joyful because He delights in you!