Grace to the undeserved.

Jesus, I feel so down today... I'm just torn between what to do and what not to do. So many thoughts keep chasing me down, shouting in different voices in my mind. I feel so lost Lord that I don't know what to do. But it's just these days Lord that I feel so much more closer to You. You are the only one I can turn to when man fails. But Father, I thank You that you have let me gone through all these troubles to know that You are the only one who truly cares for me, I'm so glad it happened that I got to spend more time with You. Yes, I am in control of my feelings. I can choose to be happy about this situation, yes I can. But Father I just want to run into Your arms tonight, like a child who runs to his father when he's scared, when he's lonely, when he just need some warmth. I think that's exactly what I need and I know that you won't reject me. I know that you will just squeeze me tight in Your arms and won't let go until I do. Th

The four walls stared at me. I could hardly see anything else besides the light that was streaming in from the windows. The moon shone brightly amongst the dark sky. It reminded me that He was still with me, even in the pits. I was at the lowest point in my life. Everything was taken away from me. My father, Benjamin and the luxurious life I was used to living. All that I had was gone. I have been stripped away from my position, from being the overseer of Potiphar's household. It seems like there was no God. I spoke to Him but there was no reply. Why Lord, why me? The next day, the rooster crowed. Two new prisoners were being confined with me: the king's baker and his butler. They both had dreams but had no interpretation. Lord, I know that all interpretations belong to You and You alone. They told their dreams to me and He interpreted them through me. The dreams came to past soon after as God's word is Truth. Father, will I ever get out of this prison wa

These past few days, I've been observing the sky a lot and just looking up to see. This is one of the ways that Jesus speaks to me. :) So the other day after CG, I felt quite down and I wanted to see the stars in the sky. But to my dismay, there were none. I simply complained to the Lord, saying, "Lord, I want to see the stars." I peered up again and viola, so many stars appeared before my eyes. It was a breathtaking view man. There was one constellation that caught my eye: the orion belt. It reminded me so much of the cross. Can you see it? It was just so amazing and I felt the Lord telling me that He loves me. And when I saw the cross, everything just fell into place. He hung the stars for me, the whole world just revolves around Him. Even the stars praise His name. When I complained, He did not condemn me or scold me but yet He enveloped me with His love. I was just lost for words. How great my God is.  p.s. I just re-read my post ab

Hey just wanna share about the sermon by Pastor Prince this Sunday. I just felt a huge sense of His love for me and so... here it goes. A Samaritan Woman Meets Her Messiah 4  Therefore, when the Lord knew that the Pharisees had heard that Jesus made and baptized more disciples than John  2  (though Jesus Himself did not baptize, but His disciples),  3  He left Judea and departed again to Galilee.  4  But He needed to go through Samaria. 5  So He came to a city of Samaria which is called Sychar, near the plot of ground that Jacob gave to his son Joseph.  6  Now Jacob’s well was there. Jesus therefore, being wearied from  His journey, sat thus by the well. It was about the sixth hour. 7  A woman of Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her,  “Give Me a drink.”   8  For His disciples had gone away into the city to buy food. 9  Then the woman of Samaria said to Him, “How is it that You, being a Jew, ask a drink from me, a Samaritan woman?” For Jews have no dealings with