Lord, help.

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Tomorrow's the day of my Chemistry promos and after the consultation with my chem teacher, I realised how unprepared I am and there are so many things that I still don't know.
I tried.
I tried doing more tutorials and memorising things but it just keeps getting worse.
It just kept reminding of my lack and weaknesses.
It got so bad that I really just felt like breaking down man...

But I'm so grateful for my CG who keeps showering me with encouragements and I feel better now.
Listened to this song by Planetshakers, "Beautiful Saviour" and it reminded me of how good my God is.
If He can do it for me in the past, He can do the same thing for me now.
It's so hard to think that way when the world is so focused on what you are supposed to do and what you have not done.
But I've decided, to trust in the Lord.
Idk man, it's like taking a leap into the abyss without knowing what's at the end.

But I want to try.
I want to depend on the Lord for my results.
And I received this beautiful message from Abigail:
My Courageous Princess,
Allow Me, your Strong Prince to fight any and all battles this life brings you. I don’t want My Bride to exhaust herself fighting in her own strength. The battle you face My love, is already won! Now step behind Me and let your powerful Prince shield you from the attacks of the enemy of your soul.
Yes, I am your warrior and your protector. As long as you stand behind me and let me fight for you, there is nothing that can or will overtake you. It is my pleasure to go to war for my beloved bride.
Love,
Your Prince and Protector

“For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you
 to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.”
~Deuteronomy 20:4 (NIV)~ 

I just felt touched and loved by the Lord :')
And to know that I doubted Him and what He is able and willing to do makes me feel even more loved.
To know that I have a God who loves me selflessly no matter what I think or do.

Abba, my Chemistry papers are in Your wonderful hands :)

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