Open doors. 2013

Hello, decided to do a blog post after a long time of being mia.
This year, the Lord declares that it is a year of open doors.
The cool thing is that door is a picture of grace.
This means that this year, boom. Grace will be opened.
Just picture grace overflowing out of many doors.
I believe it's gonna be the best year yet of my life.

And btw, I received my 'O' Level results.
To be honest, it wasn't my ideal score as I couldn't get into the school I desired.
I was really disappointed and cried badly after talking to my mum about it...
I really thought that VJC was going to be my one and only choice.
But God ways are higher than mine.
He sure went ahead and chose the perfect path for me.
I believe no matter what school I enter, it will be the best for me.
Imagine a school handpicked by the Father. Just wow.
This year's theme truly opened my eyes to see that it was a door shut for me by God.
And I really can't open it no matter how hard I try.
Just really thank God.

There are so many things I wanna share since it has been a long time.

Firstly, I shall start with repentance (changing of mind).
My mindset seriously changed when Pastor Lian preached the other time.
I always used to think that I deserved this since I worked hard for it, I deserve a nice family, I deserve friends because I am nice or whatnot.
Her words. Truly anointed.
She said something along the lines of all glory to God.
None to us.
And there I was, questioning, why can't some glory go to me? I did something didn't I?
The truth is, I did nothing. I am nothing without God.
Like a dust in the wind, a droplet in the sea.
I can really do nothing without God.
In the first place, I can't even be alive without Him.
Who am I to say that I am something? Who am I to say that some glory should go to me?
Yet, God is so gracious and so extremely good to me.
Until now, I still can't fathom the depths of His grace.
He gave His son up for me. For a nobody. A nobody.
He gave me a family.
He gave me friends.
He gave me everything.
I am so touched by His grace man.
It's so unbelievable.
That He still wants to give to me in my undeserving state.
Like how David let Mephibosheth sit at his table despite being lame.
Sometimes, I think to myself.
What is wrong with God? Why is He so good to me?
Well, what to do? I am a Beloved of the Most High.

Secondly, I am so grateful that God answered my prayer.
For the longest time, I was hoping that my brother in Christ would know God more and we would one day have a godly conversation.
I kinda forgot about that prayer till yesterday when he started texting me.
I was so shocked and so touched by the grace of God.
What I cannot do, He can.
Really a changed man, this guy.
I'm starting to like him more as a a brother and a friend.
Somehow putting God in the center of the relationship makes the other party all the more attractive.
And you can't help but love them more.
I await more conversations like that Lord.

And lastly, haha I don't know man.
I just want to thank God for being placed in such a grace-filled church.
If not for the Lord, who brought me here, I would still be living under the law.
What a terrible life it would have been.
The Lord is just so full of grace that he lifted me up to higher ground.
And I actually have a lot of bad habits which I really want to change.
Lord, change me.

I encourage you to let God in this new year.
Whatever mistakes or setbacks you have been through the previous year, take it as a lesson.
This year, let grace take over.