Grace to the undeserved.

Hey hey hey! Yesterday was the end of my OP exam. Really want to give a great shout-out to the Lord who deserves all the glory :) Only He could have made it such a success and just filled with grace. I am really glad that Abba gave me such an awesome PW journey even though it was not always smooth. But I've learned a lot of things through this process and it grew me. It was so amazing that with my very own eyes, I saw how He transformed me from glory to glory. To be very honest, one of my expectations was to speak confidently to an audience. In the beginning of the year, I was actually very afraid of speaking up. Idk why but there was this fear and I was so scared about what others thought of me while I was speaking. The thought of speaking to a crowd was immensely terrifying. Wow, but He just slowly removed that fear from my heart. When I knew that He was with me through the OP exam and constantly reminded myself that Christ is my confidence, I was no longer afraid. ...

Hi guys. :) Today I got back all the papers for my Promotional Exams. Not all of them were good but still all glory to Jesus. :) Out of all these subjects, the ones that really was graced were the ones I thought I was lacking in. The ones that I believed that I could do didn't reap much. I am just really really thankful for my Chinese results. I don't know how the Lord does  it over and over again, always blessing me for Chinese when I know I suck at it. I seriously do and there is absolutely NO way I could have done this based on my hard work and efforts. I know it myself. There was not once I touched Chinese before the Promos except on the day itself. But God is just soooo good to me. From secondary school till now, God has always been showing me His grace on Chinese. (I pray that it shall be the same for the rest of my subjects too!) I guess it is the fact that I know I cannot do Chinese without Him and it is my absolute weakness. But oh how the L...

Father, today I had my physics promos. It was just so so so bad. I didn't know how to do many questions and left many blanks. I don't even know if I'm going to pass this man. Father, but I thank You that You are good and You will turn things around for me. It's not about me or how I did but it's about You. I thank You that things can get better because I have you. Father, I just don't know what to do but I place all these worries at Your feet. Father, I just let go of all this cares and worries I have in my hand right now and give them to you. It doesn't matter how well I did this time because I am successful because of You. Lord, teach me not to look at myself but just look at You.

Tomorrow's the day of my Chemistry promos and after the consultation with my chem teacher, I realised how unprepared I am and there are so many things that I still don't know. I tried. I tried doing more tutorials and memorising things but it just keeps getting worse. It just kept reminding of my lack and weaknesses. It got so bad that I really just felt like breaking down man... But I'm so grateful for my CG who keeps showering me with encouragements and I feel better now. Listened to this song by Planetshakers, "Beautiful Saviour" and it reminded me of how good my God is. If He can do it for me in the past, He can do the same thing for me now. It's so hard to think that way when the world is so focused on what you are supposed to do and what you have not done. But I've decided, to trust in the Lord. Idk man, it's like taking a leap into the abyss without knowing what's at the end. But I want to try. I want to depend on...